I’m almost to the end.
I’m almost to the end of a pregnancy that went incredibly fast and incredibly slow. A pregnancy that was emotionally difficult, yet almost completely uneventful. A pregnancy that we longed for and that I’m reluctant to say goodbye to, but also can’t wait to be over. And I feel calm, panicked, excited, terrified, happy, sad, apprehensive, and impatient all at once.
Just 10 short days until our due date.
And I can’t wait to meet our little guy. I can’t wait to see that he has safely made it into the world. I can’t wait to be done with all the pregnancy worries I’ve carried for so long; monitoring movement, wondering if he’s ok, panicking at thoughts of the worst case scenario happening. I can’t wait to hold him in my arms. I tear up when I think about going into labor, although I try to convince myself it’s not because I’m afraid (“It’s not ’cause I’m a wimp!” I tried to tell my husband, wiping my eyes), but just because I feel so overcome with the emotional intensity of it all.
And then there’s part of me that is sad to no longer be pregnant anymore. I waited for so long, I wanted it for so long, I fantasized about it for so long. I feel so mixed about it being over.
Tuesday was our 3rd wedding anniversary. Exactly two years ago to that day we got our first positive pregnancy test. So interesting to have our anniversary punctuate a beginning and an end to this particular fertility journey. Despite the struggle in between, I can look back on these anniversaries fondly, as happy times, as times of great anticipation, and feeling so excited and connected as a couple.
And of course, feeling like there is another huge adventure in front of us…
I can’t believe it’s so close already!!! Wishing you the best of luck with your delivery. Hope you post some pics when he arrives!
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Thank you! I will be sure to post some pics 🙂
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How incredible to hear that you are almost there! I have truly enjoyed following you on this journey. This month we are doing our first IUI so fingers crossed! I hope everything goes well with your delivery. And yes please post some pics of your little guy when he gets here! SO happy to hear a happy ending!
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Thank you so much for your support and for following my journey 🙂 Wishing you the best of luck with your IUI!
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So glad that you’ve reached the home stretch and excited to hear if you little one’s arrival. I know what you mean about it being bittersweet. I was so ready to be done in those last few weeks but also knew it was my last pregnancy and didn’t want to wish it away!
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I know, I’ve been so excited to hit each milestone of this pregnancy that I have to remind myself to not wish this time away!
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I must say though that I shot my husband a pretty evil eye any time he told me to “savor the moment” after about 38 weeks ;-).
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Hahaha….yeah husbands aren’t allowed to tell us that when we’re so uncomfortable!!
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Wow, I cannot believe you are 10 days away from your due date! I am so excited for you to meet your little one! 🙂
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Thank you! ❤
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Oh my gosh, this seems to have gone by so quickly. How exciting!
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I still can’t believe we’re at the end!
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I was exactly like you! I was sad to give up being pregnant, but having the little one here is so amazing and I suddenly have a whole new set of worries! Sending you happy thoughts for a smooth labor!
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Thank you! I know, I’m sure once I see my little boy I won’t feel so sad about the pregnancy being over!
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The oddest part is thinking “Where did my stomach go?” and then seeing your little one! ❤
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yay! I’m so excited for you. any day now 🙂 I expected to go late and baby came early at 39wks. I didn’t want pregnancy to end but when it was over I didn’t want to go back. having a baby in arms was way better. all the best!
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Thank you! I know, I can’t wait to have my baby in my arms – that will trump everything!
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I’m sending the very warmest and peaceful wishes for a safe and healthy delivery
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Thank you so much ❤
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You’re so incredibly close now! Wishing you an uneventful l&d followed by the magical first cuddles with your little one ⭐️
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Thank you!
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Wow, you’re so close! Ill be thinking of you and hoping for smooth and uneventful delivery! Can’t wait to see pics of your baby boy!!
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Thanks so much! 🙂
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I can totally relate to the sadness of not being pregnant…it does fade with time
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Glad to hear it will fade with time…I kind of want it both ways – to stay pregnant AND to have my baby boy in my arms 🙂
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THIS:
“So interesting to have our anniversary punctuate a beginning and an end to this particular fertility journey.”
I get it.
I do.
Continued blessings to the three of you.
Under the same sky,
Dani
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